By Faith....
In a couple of weeks I will lead a bit of a homeschool workshop for Malagasy families in the city. This is a new thing for me, and I'm nervous. Feeling extremely intimidated, humbled, and under-qualified.
Often I feel kind of blind going through this mommy/homeschool life. I'm taking each step by faith, literally, not sure what tomorrow will hold, or if what we're doing now will make an impact later. I don't have much credibility to be speaking about homeschooling. I, myself, haven't been doing this that long either!
It's like planting seeds, however. We plant seeds in the soil, cover them up, and leave them there. Patiently watering them, making sure they stay moist. Weeds, competing for any nutrients, we pluck out as best we can. Even though nothing looks like it's happening for a really long time, we have faith that the seeds will sprout, a plant will come up, and eventually we'll be able to behold beautiful flowers or sink our teeth into a juicy piece of fruit.
I would never call myself a gardener... but I suppose, I do know that it takes patience, watchfulness, and dedication to see a plant grow in my garden. In the same way, I would never call myself an expert on homeschooling or parenting. Far from it. But I do know it takes patience, watchfulness, and dedication (and more) to see our babies grow and mature.
Despite all of this "blindness" and uncertainty I feel in myself and in my abilities, I have the confidence God's Word gives me.
From the Mixed-Up Files of Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler was a great little read. I finished it in 2 days because it was so enjoyable. :) A wonderful tale of a young on a journey of self discovery---wanting to return to real life changed, different.
I am reading Trusting God in between other books on the go, and I'm finding it so encouraging. This book is full of Scripture revealing God's goodness, and the truth that man cannot fathom God's ways. We cannot understand Him; but we can trust Him to be perfectly just, perfectly righteous, and to be working all things out for His glory. And also amazing is the fact that He wants us to be involved in this "working out." As I'm highlighting sections I want to take note of or remember, I could easily highlight the whole book!
I am still reading through A Momentary Marriage by John Piper. As I'm going along, many sections could be highlighted! A biblical perspective on marriage and singleness.
Just another fun book. For our read aloud, I gave the kids the choice between two books: Om-Kas-Toe and Mister Max The Book of Lost Things.
They chose Om-Kas-Toe. Actually, I'm happy they did, because it goes along with our history studies better than the alternative. But I still wanted to read this one for my own enjoyment. Why haven't I read Cynthia Voigt before? So fun!
Often I feel kind of blind going through this mommy/homeschool life. I'm taking each step by faith, literally, not sure what tomorrow will hold, or if what we're doing now will make an impact later. I don't have much credibility to be speaking about homeschooling. I, myself, haven't been doing this that long either!
It's like planting seeds, however. We plant seeds in the soil, cover them up, and leave them there. Patiently watering them, making sure they stay moist. Weeds, competing for any nutrients, we pluck out as best we can. Even though nothing looks like it's happening for a really long time, we have faith that the seeds will sprout, a plant will come up, and eventually we'll be able to behold beautiful flowers or sink our teeth into a juicy piece of fruit.
I would never call myself a gardener... but I suppose, I do know that it takes patience, watchfulness, and dedication to see a plant grow in my garden. In the same way, I would never call myself an expert on homeschooling or parenting. Far from it. But I do know it takes patience, watchfulness, and dedication (and more) to see our babies grow and mature.
Despite all of this "blindness" and uncertainty I feel in myself and in my abilities, I have the confidence God's Word gives me.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. But in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths. (Prov. 3:6)
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God. (Phil. 4:6)
If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. (James 1:5)
And without faith it is impossible to please God. (Hebrews 11:6)
Your statues are my delight; they are my counselors. (Psalm 119:24)God wants me to be dependant on Him. And in these moments of feeling intimidated, under-qualified, and like there must be a better person for this.... I'm reminded God wants me to get my strength from Him, only.
This image came across my Facebook newsfeed this week, and it really spoke to me. This is truly one of the reasons I'm keeping my children close to me in these early years of their lives. I feel there's so much noise in the world. There are so many messages to sift through, to weigh and wonder where it all fits in the priorities of life. Homeschooling gives our family many more chances for our children to witness our values. Our family culture doesn't have to compete that hard yet. We are laying some "normals" down for the children: things our family does. And I pray that it is a beautiful melding of the truth of God's Word, the unique personalities He's given each of us, and our individual interests and abilities. Once again, by faith.
On My Side Table
From the Mixed-Up Files of Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler was a great little read. I finished it in 2 days because it was so enjoyable. :) A wonderful tale of a young on a journey of self discovery---wanting to return to real life changed, different.
I am still reading through A Momentary Marriage by John Piper. As I'm going along, many sections could be highlighted! A biblical perspective on marriage and singleness.
Just another fun book. For our read aloud, I gave the kids the choice between two books: Om-Kas-Toe and Mister Max The Book of Lost Things.They chose Om-Kas-Toe. Actually, I'm happy they did, because it goes along with our history studies better than the alternative. But I still wanted to read this one for my own enjoyment. Why haven't I read Cynthia Voigt before? So fun!
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