What is this pattern of thinking?
Not trusting. Wanting control. Being unwilling to submit. Hanging on too tight. Faithless living. Fearful bondage. Idolatry.
The thing is this, I want so badly to place my children into the lap of the Father and have them embrace Him. The flip side, I never want to make a mistake so large that it turns my children away from God and the church.
Good Parenting In actually does not equal Good Children Out, just like Bad Parenting In equals Bad Children Out. It doesn't take much reading in the Old Testament, to see a godly king raise up a son who ends up becoming an evil king who raises a son who ends up becoming a godly king and so forth. History shows us that there aren't any guarantees in our methods. And perhaps there's rest found there. If there were guarantees---if there was a tried and true formula for turning out godly kids---we would be the god, and no longer need a Savior. We would no longer have reason to trust in our Father. And this is where we need to be. Constantly.
My hope is built on nothing less
Than Jesus' blood and righteousness
I dare not trust the sweetest frame,
But wholly lean on Jesus' name.